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I Am the Possibility of Teshuvah

...Now you must void yourself
of injuries, insults, incursions.
Go with empty hands to those
you have hurt and make amends.
It is not too late. It is early
and about to grow. Now
is the time to do what you
know you must and have feared
to begin. Your face is dark
too as you turn inward to face
yourself, the hidden twin of
all you must grow to be.
Forgive the dead year. Forgive
yourself. What will be
wants to push through your fingers...
--Marge Piercy, from "The Head of the Year"

On September 19, 2018, I woke up thirsty. Even though I hadn’t had anything to drink since right before sunset, I only sipped enough water that morning to swallow some Excedrin. I knew that without my morning coffee, I would quickly develop a headache if I didn’t proactively take some medicine, and this was not considered breaking the fast.

It was the morning of Yom Kippur, also known as the Day of Atonement.

The idea of earning Divine forgiveness for my sins through self-punishment does NOT resonate with me. Bu…